[29 Nov 2004|12:44am] so yeah, i havent really updated in like, im nt to sure its been a while. But i am now on my own, up at St. FX and I love it. I have had sooooooooooooo many good times but am home sick for the first time. The worst part is that i miss my mommy and daddy bad.but i will be home in like 2 weeks. and i will catching up with a lot of people. i read a lot of posts tonight and realized that i missed out on a lot. but ive had changes to, like for instance, this is a heartbreaker for anybody whos gotten to know her, my car has been sold. It had a good run, many a good times had in that car. passed down through my family for 15 years and ended with me. Fuck i did some dumb shit to that car, but it was fun. i sure am gonna miss her. I was reading a post by andrea and she said that she was getting her grad pictures done soon, wow. i cant believe its been a year. what a long summer i had and now it seems like it was only a minute, amazing how time goes by. i feel like i lost touch with a lot of people from home so i really wanna hang out with everybody when i get home so im back on the 17th so if you wanna catch up call 864-7251 ( wow, its weired to write that number now ) or just leave me a message and i will give you a call. Yeah yeah so whos comin to X next year cause its the shit and if you do come you wanna live in Macissac Hall and if i know you, you come here, and you dont live here, then im afraid we cant talk. Just kidding but seriously Mac is the shit, i love it here. So i get drunk wat too much up here, we all do. I should just take out my liver and just beat the shit out of it to save myself some time. My proudest part of university is finishing a quart of 76% rum in 2 nights, no clue what happened either night. man i was fucked, inner circle oh how youve changed my life. but its exam time now so no more drinkin until the 17th. its gonna be nice to sleep in my own bed and see my mommy and daddy and sister. plus all my friends from home. i think im gonna go to bed now so yeah, everybody who reads this comment and yeah do it. BIG NOISE!!!!!!! CCCYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA people like gangsters! people like mail!

sad [18 Jul 2004|09:36pm] am i not ment to be happy? because i rarely am anymore. i see people all the time and tell them we have to hang out but we never do. all i do is work, i put in 71 hours in the past two weeks and when i get paid saturday i will have no money because it all goes to university. University, the one thing that can save me now. i know it will hurt but not as bad as im hurting now. i dont want to hurt anymore, its all i do. anytime i try something it blows up in my face, i hate everything right now. most of asll me. i need to change because im feeling old feelings of depression. and im sorry but the only thing that will help is moving, as bad as that sounds. i lost a friend the other day and im gonna miss him. i barely talk to any of my friends anymore and i miss them. i try to make new friends and i cant or something happens. it really hurts to feel lonely. right now im sitting in my room by myself, its the same thing i did last night. i mean i know i cant have everything go my way but at least one would be nice. i will take anything right now. all these feelings ive felt before and they are the worst feeling in the world, whenever im by myself its all i can think about, i hate it so much. it sucks so bad. all i can do is pick myself apart. i hate everything about me. people like gangsters! people like mail!

feeling it bad [17 Jul 2004|09:10pm] i need you so much people like mail!

[12 Jul 2004|12:14pm] wow its been like 3 weeks and i didnt even do the last update, Meaghann did. So all i have done was work lately, but i did get out sometimes. Spent a lot of the time with rebecca but i did go to see anchorman with dave, steve and sarah on friday. good movie, like when jack black kicked the dog, priceless. somebody just whistled outside my window, it pissed me off because i cant whistle. Saturday i got called into work on my day off but i was fine with that because i got to play basketball all night. On sunday i went to a picnic with mommy, daddy, lindsey and rebecca. it was fun but i almost broke rebecca's nose playing frisbee, i am soooooooooooooooo sorry, but she did win, because i let her ( lindsey lost as soon as we started playing ) then i drove rebecca to work and went off to play some ball. that was good. after that i went to see anchorman again and it was just as funny. I work 3-11 for the next 4 days and that kinda sucks but i do have friday and saturday off, cant wait. but thats all for today. thanks for reading and stay classy planet earth. people like gangsters! people like mail!

[01 Jul 2004|12:16am] Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan Your name is... Your kiss is... erotic Your hugs are... gentle Your eyes... burn into my heart Your touch is... the only thing I desire Your smell is... refreshing Your smile is... hypnotising Your love is... eternal Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen! people like mail!

bah bow bow bow bah bow bow bow yes yes yes yes yes . .. yes [29 Jun 2004|03:17pm] [ mood | fat. and phat. ] [ music | beckys hott ass laugh ] this is meaghann andrea here, updating for allen reeder. me and becky are sitting in his room. allen is knocking outside his bedroom door, as he has been for the past oh, i'd say 7.82 minutes, as we have locked it, therefor he cannot get in. there is construction going on outside. i am drinking pop and it hurts a lot. it hurts my throat when it goes down and it's not fun. yeah. . .i just took another sip and it hurts. becky just let allen in. he said that it wasn't cool. then we laughed. giggle giggle, oh we are such girls. he is now telling us about how it was zero coolness in what we did. he was knocking and knocking and knocking. he spent 20 dollars on sun glasses at the flea market. they are kind of. . . . . . . . . . . . .not hott. i also have not brushed my hair in months. i just knocked over a picture. becky is hott. me and her don't like the first peice of cheese while being cut off the block. this is one of the many reaons why i love her. allens feet are stinky today. i can smell them from here, and he's on the bed. oh, stinky footed allen. you so fly. you so fly. it was raining out today and i did not like. today i got pinky and the pimp from friday after next mixed up today. OCUH!!! we just burned someone. me and becky were just talking, actually i'm not going to lie becky was talking and she thinks that steve noiles looks like that dude from the notebook. i like steve. actually, i love steve. we're getting married and moving to some forgein place and i'm stealing all his money so he can't get another green card so he'll never have to leave me. chris just looged on msn. he has beer icons by his name. he's either an alcoholic or a reject alcholic. i'd like to be an alcoholic without being one. i wanna drink all the time but not have an addiction. i cannot spell alcohol. what would you do if your son was at home, crying all alone on the bedroom floor cause he's hungry, and the only way to feed him is to sleep with a man for a little bit of money and he's dady's gone somewhere smokin rock now in and out of lock down i ain't got a job now. so for you this is just a good time but for me this is what i call lfe. mmmm. okay so most of those lyrics are probably wrong but i'm not black, nor can i spell so thumbs down. um. . .i just told allen i hated him but i don't think i really meant it. actually looking at him right now is sparking some hate. okay so i lied. but becky just left the car window open and that is not cool. people like gangsters! people like mail!

PROM [22 Jun 2004|09:43pm] what an amazing time, i had so much fun. The day was sooooooooooooooooooo long and sooooooooooooooooo rushed but when everything came together it was great. Andrea looked amazing and was the best prom date any guy could have asked for, we had so much fun together. and one day Andrea the world will appreciate my dancing skills. safe grad was a lot of fun, FRINGES!!!!!!. our team was great and considering justin will be moving in like two weeks and we wont really hang out that much made it a really good ending. the pizza was shit, can anyone say microwave, but we had fun there none the less. then came the boat ride, and sleep time. Andrea fell asleep first then i was next. i drooled all over my hand but i was fine with that, then the night was all over. What an amazing time it all was and its gonna be the second last time that i will see a lot of these people for the rest of my life, so i guess the end was sad. Andrea thank you again for being such a fun date, i had an awesome time. :) Peace out, A-town people like gangsters! people like mail!

[17 Jun 2004|09:12pm] well it is finally here, I AM FINISHED HIGH SCHOOL. thank you god, this is proof dreams can come true. it wasnt bad all three years, but this year was honestly shit. Sure i made a lot of new friends this year ( Meaghann you are the shit ) but i threw away the one friend that truely understanded me and made excuse not to talk to her again. I am so sorry and if i could go back and change everything then i would be the one you think about all the time, but you are happy and that is all that matters. I acted like it didnt hurt me but since school is over i will let you all know, if you dont already then i am amazed, it killed me. many nights were spent thinking about all the good times. Then i went to a party at Adam Murphy's house and met Erin. she was really nice and had a beutiful smile, but i felt to bad, it was like i was using her, which i wasnt because im not that kind of guy. i ended thins with her a very bad way, i just stopped talking to her and if i wasnt such a scared kid i would call her right now and apoligize for everything i did. then Jason broke my window and i got caught between the fight between him and my dad, jason i can understand everything you said but please dont be mad at me for sticking up for my dad, i really had no choice. soon i began to fail physics and would be working every weekend, i soon became depressed. it sucked. i would walk into school and look at people and hate them, even people i didnt know i would just hate them. then i would get home and hate myself, i would be lying if i said i didnt consider suicide. that was when i said " calm down, breathe " this was said often and would be how i delt with these feelings. Then at one amazing night at work it ended, i was happy again. that day i found out i was passing physics and i was happy, and work was fun, i will never forget that night. soon after i met meaghaan and i have never met such an amazing person ( well there was one other ) she made me happy to be around and Heather helped me through a lot of stuff and i became really close with the both of them. then one day somthing amazing happened. i got my computer, got live journal, then wrote a post with a song on it. Rebecca commented. i was so happy we became friends again. we had a lot of talks after that and now we have become best friends, this is sooooooooooo great. Steve and i fought over some stupid stuff ( it was my fault, and im sorry ) but things are better now. my life is better now,. everything is better now. i am happy again, its been to long. soon im leaving here though, im excited but im scared. but its what i want. so if we arnt best friends or even close dont be afraid to call me please, because i dont want to lose the people that have been such a big part of my life for close to 13 years. we have all gone through a lot of stuff together, and a lot of us have been there for each other so thank you, each and everyone of you for helping me become who i am. Allen Reeder people like gangsters! people like mail!

good mood [11 Jun 2004|11:47pm] Lately my moods have been up and down, but i think this one is here to stay. today was awesome, i woke up to two dads fighting outside of the elementry school by my house. fucking halerious. i ran outside to watch and my dad joined me. when the lady came out of nowhere and screamed "im calling the cops" we lost it and had to go inside. right then i knew today was gonna be awesome. i went to school but there was no point because we did fuck all in the 2 classes i went to but i was happy with that. the REBECCA and jenn went to the mall with me and we picked out becky's necklace for prom, i feel sorry for all the other girls because they will all look like shit compared to her, seriously she looks amazing. then we got jenn to act pregnat for a parking space. then i dropped those kids home and it was off to work. i wasnt looking forward to it but im gald i went because i made an extra $100 on comission. it was awesome. now im here at the computer reflecting on my day. i really like this mood im in and im gonna try and keep it. people like gangsters! people like mail!

my story! [08 Jun 2004|07:02pm] It seems like nothing i can say will make you feel better, like all our sunny days have turned into rainy weather. No more touching, no more kissing, no more holding you tight, no more feelings that i will be with you every single night. These dreams are now slowly leaving my head, quickly replaced with storm clouds instead. When what i held on to for so long is taken away, it feels like nothing will ever go my way. So even though i am happy for you, I just want you to realize what im going through. dont be mad but i neede to say it people like gangsters! people like mail!

[04 Jun 2004|07:17pm] 1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4 Write down what it says: that danced on the sand, and only later percieved the body above 2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first: the wall 3. What is the last thing you watched on TV: some tlc show with my sister 4. Without looking, guess what the time is: 7:20 Now look at the clock, what is the actual time: 7:19 ( i checked like 2 minutes ago ) 6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear: cars 7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing: BBQ"N steak 8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at: nba.com 9. What are you wearing? UCLA jersay and jeans 10. Did you dream last night: mabye 11. When did you last laugh: when my sister ate the whole bowl of salad tonight and my mom got mad because i didnt have any. fucking halerious 12. What is on the walls of the room you are in: red and white paint and a canadian flag 13. Seen anything weird lately: that stupid tlc show 15. What is the last film you saw: troy but im going to harry potter tonight 16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first: a hummer 17. Tell me something about you that I don't know: i have a teddy bear that will never ever leave my room 18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do: no more provincial exams 19. Do you like to dance: yeah, but im no good. people laugh at me 20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her: dunno, i will leave that one to the wife 21. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him: Geoff stole this one from Jenn. dont ever do these but i like this one people like gangsters! people like mail!

[23 May 2004|11:57pm] so i had plans all day to hang otu with steve and then he fuckin ditched me. Fuck you steve, you want in my fucking car all the time and then when you get yours you dont even try to get ahold of me. your a fucking asshole. Becky got home tonight and she had a bad weekend, so i tried to make her feel better. i had her laughiing a lot so that made me happy. that was a lot of fun we had a really good time, the bestest. Great girl. work really sucked today because i had a 8 hour shift and only 5 people came up. the party was fun until i wanted to sleep. not fucking cool. not cool at all. anyway im out holla!!!!!! ps hey steve the fucking world doesnt revolve around you dickhead people like gangsters! people like mail!

What up [18 May 2004|06:20pm] Best line in a song ever 1234, lloyd banks in the house, man get the fuck on the floor if youve ever heard the song post good day, watching meaghann get beat up was pretty funny. Frisbee right in the head. Fucking gold material right there. i just keep playing that moment in my head over and over again. GOLD. Sometimes i wish i was a real gangster so i could scare people, but as you all know im soft as a marshmellow, but i still am gonna get a handgun as soon as i can. i really cant wait to get one. i know what your saying, what kind of a fucking idiot would give him a gun? Well hopefully a nice one because if they are mean, i will find one and come back for them. I cant wait to get one. people like gangsters! people like mail!

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